What do you know, meeting-friend, and today's binge.

Here I was thinking there weren't other blogs about compulsive eating and addiction out there.

My google-fu has gotten a bit stronger and I found Act Boldly, which is a blog about recovery post compulsive eating. I'll have to pay attention. :)

Had a nice phone chat with a woman from the meeting I currently go to. We talked program a little and some art stuff, as it would seem we are both artists, and she gave me the scoop on some of the other local meetings that I might like.

One of my big challenges lately that I talked about at my last meeting and that I talked about with my meeting-friend [I need pseudonyms for people, clearly..] is not spending money on food I don't need. I have an awful habit of binging by going out and spending money on food I don't need to be eating--like, food when I'm not hungry, food that is not good for me, or food that is not a meal. I was really good with that for about a week and sort of busted that today--I ate lunch out, which was okay to start with as I had a sandwich and juice...but then added on a pecan sticky bun which was a definite binge for me as I wasn't hungry and didn't need it. Back to square one on the spending front.

And yet, in all this, I feel sort of hopeful. Previously, when I've binged, I've felt fucking hopeless and useless and like there was no light at the end of the tunnel. I don't feel like that today and haven't felt like that recently. I guess maybe this is me picking up on the idea that tomorrow is another day, that it won't always be this way, and I am active in the process of trying to find a way to be healthy and free of the fucking insanity that my eating habits often communicate.

I feel like I'm going to be posting a lot--a lot to catch up on that has been held in for too long.